1 Petrus 4: 7-11

4:7 Kesudahan segala sesuatu sudah dekat. Karena itu kuasailah dirimu dan jadilah tenang, supaya kamu dapat berdoa.

The end of the world is coming soon. Therefore, be earnest and disciplined in your prayers.

4:8 Tetapi yang terutama: kasihilah sungguh-sungguh seorang akan yang lain, sebab kasih menutupi banyak sekali dosa.

Most important of all, continue to show deep love for each other, for love covers a multitude of sins.

4:9 Berilah tumpangan seorang akan yang lain dengan tidak bersungut-sungut.

Cheerfully share your home with those who need a meal or a place to stay.

4:10 Layanilah seorang akan yang lain, sesuai dengan karunia yang telah diperoleh tiap-tiap orang sebagai pengurus yang baik dari kasih karunia Allah.

God has given each of you a gift from his great variety of spiritual gifts. Use them well to serve one another.

4:11 Jika ada orang yang berbicara, baiklah ia berbicara sebagai orang yang menyampaikan firman Allah; jika ada orang yang melayani, baiklah ia melakukannya dengan kekuatan yang dianugerahkan Allah, supaya Allah dimuliakan dalam segala sesuatu karena Yesus Kristus. Ialah yang empunya kemuliaan dan kuasa sampai selama-lamanya! Amin.

Do you have the gift of speaking? Then speak as though God himself were speaking through you. Do you have the gift of helping others? Do it with all the strength and energy that God supplies. Then everything you do will bring glory to God through Jesus Christ. All glory and power to him forever and ever! Amen.

This few verses have been keeping me through the week of prolonged days.

After years of having to balance out time between school activities, studying, church activities, and other miscellaneous stuff, I honestly sincerely still struggle with it.

Although the struggle may be the same, but how I go through that struggle is always different.

At this stage, I feel like giving up. My books are of same number, but the pages unrevised keep increasing. So does the number of question marks coming out from my head, evaporating into thin air.

It’s mid February, common test will be in a month’s time. I know there is not to be any of “sports season” or that sort in my self reasoning to not study.
(I know it’s just a common test. How ever common it may be to you, it is common uncommon to me.)

At the same time, I’m trying to make it a habit to remember the day’s Scripture/quiet time portion and be able to share what I have learn throughout the week.

Well, I am quite intrigued actually. I sing of how I cannot live without God. At the end of the week, if someone asks’ me what I have learn this week, am I able to tell the person?

Yes, I learn and understand from my daily quiet time. If I fail to answer him, does that show of how much I can live without Him, or how much I cannot live without Him? Isn’t there more to, than just that? (E.g. Meditating on His Word, speaking to Him each second of the day.)

On the other side if the week, it was rather filled with much joy, gladness and thankfulness.

Starting off with my long jump, much appreciation to Xue Qi, I managed to jump a distance of 4.3 m and was first. Woohoo! Surprised I am, as it was my first time participating for the long jump event. Um. So… MSSD, here I come! Hahha!

Then came Sunday (yesterday). I managed to keep four kids occupied during the message! Although it was quite a lot to handle: Giving one words to write repeatedly (he can only speak Tamil), the other, translating the message into Malay (for an Indian girl), then Chinese (for a Chinese boy) and while doing so, “playing” with a kindergarten boy without any noise.

I can multi task.


“Shut up, BITCH”

And so it was said twice to me by my guy classmate, not exactly in a funny or angry way, in the midst of listening to my blabbers.

Funny. I just did not know how to react. I swept in under the carpet. I did not flare up. HAHA.

He has an awful habit of saying that phrase, to teachers, peers (guys) and maybe even, his own dog. He speaks them out openly, except towards teachers. He says it behind their backs during class time.

It is irritating because I sit within earshot. There was a period where he said it so frequently while the teachers were teaching. I really wanted to slap him and shout “Shut up!” at him.

I did.

In my mind.

Anyway. How should I have reacted? What should I say to him next time, if he says that to me again?

I don’t want to flare up. It will just make our friendship a ship sailing through a choppy sea, and maybe after that, a friendship chopped off.

Urgh. I have, in a way, prepared what to say, if he ever says that to me again. On recovery, I feel rather odd and anxious at the same time, when I hold a conversation with him.

Enough of that.

Coming event: Acara akhir on Tuesday and Wednesday.

I find it hilarious. So, laugh along with me, as I inform you that I am going to take part in 100 meters and 4×100 meters run, and, long jump.

I am not known for my sprints. Neither am I known for running on my tips. Some can naturally run on their tips, but I’m the other some who can’t run on their tips (still in the process of learning how to).

Well, let’s just say that I don’t have much of a choice. For girls under 20, there are only four events, those three I’ve mentioned and merenjam lembing.

Initially I was only going to participate in running events, but today my house teacher begged me on her knees to participate the long jump event.

In actual fact, it was the other way round: I begged my house teacher on my knees to ask someone else to participate. I didn’t even pass sukantara’s 3.5 meter long jump (which is crazily far). And, I am terrible with long jump.

Mission failed, I still have to participate. If only the teacher would pay me to participate, since there’s such demand. Not to blow my big shiny trumpet, but it would be some extra side earnings.

You know, they say ‘study smart’, in this case, it’s ‘sporty smart’. I’m also illegible to do so, because I have Smart Card a.k.a. Kad Pintar.

Anyway. My event is on this coming Wednesday. I doubt any under 20 girl passed long jump during sukantara because no one from Omega and Sigma passed. So, six jumps, and that’s it.

Acara akhir and Sports Day will be held at the stadium this year, because the field will be on renovation. New tar tracks. I told myself that I must run at least one round on it before I leave this sekolah sukan.

Haha. Yeah. Sekolah sukan.

Get up and walkiee

Jesus told him, “Stand up, pick up your mat, and walk!”

Somehow this phrase He said reminds me of simply: moving on.

When He healed the paralytic, the guy was no longer paralyzed but able to walk.

These few weeks I’ve been trying to leave the past as history, not dwelling on how much I have or have not done, how much I should or could have done, stay focus and look forward as a new set of challenges awaits.

I can’t keep looking behind, because I’ll miss out on what’s ahead of me. Or say, while walking or running, I can’t keep looking behind, because I might hit/bang into a pole, branch, bar, traffic light, car, balloon.

But not to say that I totally forget the past. As the paralytic was told to pick up his mat and walk, it’s just to say that I need to deal/settle with the past. Get over it and start walking.

The journey ahead is easier and would take less time to travel, because there are less obstacles and walking is faster than… not walking? I mean. He was paralyzed… Also, it calls for berdikari-ness.

Yeah. Just a little of what my mind has been storing.

Last Saturday, I met my ex-THO-playmate? Hairi, I meant. It was refreshing for me. After a pretty long while of not meeting “pleasant Malays”. And a frustrating meeting with someone with authority in school. I know I can only take that much. But I’m trying to prolong my “that much” with God’s help and wisdom. Haha.

I’m curious, what’s up with guys and smoking? I’ve heard of some guys around my age, puffing away when they leave Kluang… Okay, maybe one of the guys is still in Kluang. Haha. But it’s like. They smoke just for the sake of smoking?? Aiyo.

And one of them say that he won’t get addicted because he’s just a “social smoker”. One pack can keep for three to four days… And that’s like very minimal?

Think of it, it’s not like your friends are going to supply you with another pair of lungs.

And, if they smoke for “acceptance” or “attention”.. Then what do girls do?